[ 2020 – corona, no rhyme or reason ]
I. i can see that you can talk the talk but do you bring your body with you do your words touch your heart can you feel them in your feet and in your knees can you feel them in your lower body, in your shoulder and can you feel them in your left hand i can hear that you can talk the talk but do your words touch your heart if not they cannot touch mine either II. somehow your face remains untouched by your own words look at the camera look at your own portrait on video you are on zoom but are you how much of you is do you sync your lips with the rest of you if i turned off the audio could i see what you say if i turned off the video could i hear what you say if i didn’t speak your language could the sound of your voice tell me what you say think about it no lean your heart into it III. now is the time now is your chance to try a new approach a new attitude towards the world and towards yourself don’t use big words before you can feel what they mean don’t use big words and wipe them out instantaneously with your body you are on camera we can see you behind these big words oh, you didn’t shave for a few days to make it look like you are a normal person now - like me and all the others oh, there is a fridge in the background so it looks like you have a kitchen like a normal person now - like me and all the others oh, the lighting is a bit off to make you look more normal now - like me and all the others you can’t hide your riches you can’t hide your privilege don’t fool me by not shaving for a day don’t fool me by sitting in front of a fridge don’t fool me with bad lighting you are reading off a script how dare you pretend that we are equals how dare you show off bits and pieces of what somebody told you would make you look more normal you don’t even dare to speak freely risk to stumble while talking to me risk to not find the right word risk to make a mistake risk to sound like a normal person speaking live in front of their laptop camera you read these big words off a script you’ve hurt my feelings
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